My Asthenia

school has been real busy not exactly but yea i’ll say so.. i got so much homework that i couldn’t finish it in one day. that’s something new..somehow feel rather lazy. my efficiency level has definitely dropped. oh well.. i need a motivation shot. dammit..gotta study harder. screw distractions. the Youth Olympics seminar was rather repetitive and kinda old..cos they kept repeating all the points.oh well all the best to Singapore for its bid for the Youth Olympics. beach wrestling and BMX biking seems real cool. here i am struggling to finish my homework. Oh God help me.. Prayer isn’t always answered immediately. Besides God doesn’t give you what you want at least not exactly he kinda makes you work for it and also the opportunity for the quality to be acquired. that’s just why he is one cool dude. point to ponder about. what am i gonna say to God or ask him when i meet him. 2 test next week.damn. guess i’ll see you around.Soon.

hate me love me, i’m still me. this self-questioning moron right here typing this very sentence. somehow i’m beginning to become paranoid. oh well. stress perhaps. but i really thank GOD for this year. and also the many changes that occurred over this year. in a matter of hours, minutes, seconds it’s gonna be the new year. i don’t exactly have a resolution except to be a better person in general and get to know all those around me better. now that’s a resolution. just hope that next year would be a brilliant year like this was. enjoyed it really much. thank you all that allowed me to have such a great year. from the pits of my very soul i extend my gratitude. i just realized that English is such a great language and the many ways sentences are formed is just real interesting. hope i can pick up a couple of languages before i leave this world. french, german perharps even finnish but most of all i’d love to pick up the Romance Languages. i might just become a linguist. gotta go for service soon. bye for now till we meet again on this webpage my perceptive reader to you i bequeath my life today.

Merry Christmas everyone tho’ its the 27th of December but you know what they say about the 12 days of Christmas. Christmas was real nice this year. Spent it on 3 whole days. the 23rd was spent at my cousin’s house. it was real beautiful and arty. literally, with art pieces all over and stuff. but the house just so nice. my dream home. 24th went to Vivo with my family and caught I AM LEGEND was pretty good and nice. 25th had dinner at home. had turkey.pretty tasty. time really pasts quickly i mean fast. it almost seems months ago when i just received my PSLE grades and even starting school. technically it’s been months but you get what i mean. yea and now i’m gonna be starting sec 3 in a few days. i’m nervous/excited/uncertain. mixtures of feelings but i know GOD’s gonna see me through everything one way or another. the thought of 9 subjects next year scares me actually. i really don’t see myself coping those 9 subs with OM and possibly CAP if i even qualify but you won’t know without trying yea? just hope the teachers are nice and friendly. that almost always seem so in Barker. Fightstar is an interesting band. pretty nice. just hope i can make it for the beach thing with the guys. last beach outing to top of the holidays..yea sure. ciao to the next post

alright..it always seems to make me wonder why is it that whenever i read someone else’s blog its almost seems like i actually know him/her. guess that’s probably how personal they are with their blogs. cool. yesterday had an om meeting but there were only 6 people there..so much for meeting. my team’s settled. we attempted to build a structure. the result. naught. was a utter waste of time. had subway at j8 for lunch. went home. watched a lame show and left home again for church. was gonna have a cell gathering thing. met at 4.30 didn’t leave till 5.30. we were late. brisked walked to Sara’s house and wow. it was one long walk. Played some game. the forfeit was WASABI.. trust jon choy. dinner. PS3-ed. couple of us sat outside and we indulging in idle chat. gathered around and jon choy told us something.that he, joel, nat were leaving..us to Sara and something about moving to adult service and stuff. thaddeus cracked us up as usually trying to change jon choy’s mind and stuff. had sharing about this year and stuff. jon choy revealed the truth. he was LYING. alright.next was gift exchange. david and i had to leave. didn’t get ours.oh well. yesterday was a great day. thank God for it. Bon voyage to those going for misson trip soon..God bless you all with journey mercies and stuff. Ryan, David, Jon Teng, Jo Teng, Jon Choy, Gerald and all the others i didn’t mention.

well..i just had the urge to revive my blog..just reading everyone else’s blog..really inspires me..over the years..i had countless blogs..and all about me..and stuff..but not much is mentioned on my spritual walk with my Heavenly Father. i guess that this year’s church camp really changed me..ministry was a new experience all over..really felt God’s touch..manifestation to me..now i’m here longing for the special touch again. it seems ironical that just less than a week ago i was really interested in black metal but now the once appealing music just seems to fade away. I no longer feel that attraction. In fact right now at this moment i’m listening to ‘You Saw Me’ by Hillsong. Camp was excellent apart from the location. As usual it poured on the first day. It almost seems like a tradition and maybe a test of faith. We worshiped Him of the utmost high. But the rain didn’t stop for the first time. It never did for that day but we worshiped him with our praise and that was really awesome! Through the camp, i met some new friends and i also learnt that many things seem to occur without our approval but even though the circumstance might not be ideal its was planned by the Father up there with a purpose and i also learnt that it really doesn’t matter how you are seen..for we are not of the world..many are affected by the world and we shouldn’t and no matter what, God should be my only priorty..we are all still trying to be what’s expected of us and i’ll keep trying..

haha i have been very bored lately and have decided to start blogging again =)…wells today im gonna have the rehearsal for my cousins wedding…sian…but at least going out =)…wow at fullerton hotel coo man but i guess its gonna be very grand and extravagant…hmm i got my new glasses already =)

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